Order Only - Private message to Harry and Justin

[alt_draco]

Hey-

There's something I've been wondering, and you two are the best people I can ask, because I know you're both sentimental about Sirius for different (albeit related) reasons.

Ellie leaped in front of Sirius so he could live, and near as I can tell, that's the only reason he's here now.

Are you glad about that? I mean, I know you aren't happy Ellie's dead, obviously, but when it comes right down to it, would you rather she be dead and Sirius be alive, instead of the reverse?

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Re: Private Message to Draco

[alt_draco]

I'm trying. And I like Sarah, I do. She's witty and sweet and has this cute half-smile thing that she does. We have fun together, most of the time.

But yeah.

Re: Private Message to Draco

[alt_justin]

Does Hermione make it clear that your purity doesn't matter to her?

It can't help that you're such close friends and spend so much time together. Distance makes a difference, what, but you and Hermione haven't exactly taken that route.

I say, she's seeing Clark, isn't she? Have you any sense of whether their relationship is solid or just as problematic as yours with Sarah?

-J

Re: Private Message to Draco

[alt_draco]

What? Oh, that - it never comes up. I mean, not in a personal way. Not at all. Everything we went through together completely erased all of that.

I've thought of that, yeah. Spending more time apart would make a difference, and we do, sometimes. She'll go see Tim and I'll go see Sarah. But then she once told me that if I ever needed her for anything, she'd leave Sherwood straight away. I'd do the same for her. So it can't really be called a typical friendship.

Their relationship reminds me of what you'd see from most of our school set. Lots and lots of snogging and groping, I'd wager, a little chatting now and then. I think she's definitely enjoying herself but it doesn't come across as... particularly meaningful, you know? Though I'm not in a neutral position to judge.

Re: Private Message to Draco

[alt_justin]

That's a start, I suppose. Thinking of you as equal, it means she isn't intimidated and sees you as yourself, not by a label, what.

It doesn't mean she'll ever necessarily turn round and think of you romantically, sad to say. But perhaps what she needs is something that isn't deep and meaningful, what. So that she can leave it behind if she needs to do.

-J

Re: Private Message to Draco

[alt_draco]

Intimidated by me? Ha, that's a right laugh. She's really, really not. Oh, and the bit about leaving Sherwood if I needed her, it's not about serving me or some nonsense. It's - well, hard to explain, to someone who wasn't there. Who didn't go through what we did.

I don't believe that she will ever think of me romantically, no. And I wouldn't want her to do so just because we experienced an enormous trauma together. We're not even leaning on each other like we once were and that's good.

Sometimes when I'm with Sarah I don't even think about Hermione.

But I know who I think about when I'm just by myself, and most of the time, it isn't Sarah.

I don't know. Maybe if I just give it time, someday things will be different.