Private message to Pansy
Mar. 6th, 2012 04:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alt_dracoMay I see you tonight, or do you have some oddball tea party that requires moustaches? Because we don't have duelling club, you know. And my homework can wait.
Because I really would like to see you.
Do you remember when it was that you first started to realise that your Mother was imperfect? I think you must have been young. I remember when we were just firsties, you would write about how Rosa was a drunk. I was so scandalised at the time - though that was back when I was very easily scandalised, mind. Looking back now, though, I think you must have matured a great deal earlier than I did (though I suppose it wasn't precisely mature to write about your Mother's drinking in the journals where everyone could see).
Father and I are having a row. It's somewhat about you, but he doesn't even realise it. Really been paying attention, hasn't he? Not that I particularly want him to start doing so...because when he does, he insists on controlling everything and having a say in every little thing I do. And if he doesn't like what I'm doing or saying, he has this way of just diminishing it. It's as if I can feel him laughing at me through the ink...
I mean, I suppose I'm glad I don't have Harry's Father, instead.
There's that, at least.
Because I really would like to see you.
Do you remember when it was that you first started to realise that your Mother was imperfect? I think you must have been young. I remember when we were just firsties, you would write about how Rosa was a drunk. I was so scandalised at the time - though that was back when I was very easily scandalised, mind. Looking back now, though, I think you must have matured a great deal earlier than I did (though I suppose it wasn't precisely mature to write about your Mother's drinking in the journals where everyone could see).
Father and I are having a row. It's somewhat about you, but he doesn't even realise it. Really been paying attention, hasn't he? Not that I particularly want him to start doing so...because when he does, he insists on controlling everything and having a say in every little thing I do. And if he doesn't like what I'm doing or saying, he has this way of just diminishing it. It's as if I can feel him laughing at me through the ink...
I mean, I suppose I'm glad I don't have Harry's Father, instead.
There's that, at least.
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Date: 2012-03-07 01:16 am (UTC)I don't see how it could be
unless he doesn't want, but sometimes it's good to know these things ahead of time.no subject
Date: 2012-03-07 01:47 am (UTC)In brief: the bill for my Valentine's gift to you came, and he demanded to know who I was splurging on. I refused to say, mostly because he was making a giant fuss about it and acting as if I'd just bought someone an engagement ring. And also because if I DID say, he'd have some kind of big opinion on it that I'd have to listen to, ad nauseum.
I also didn't tell him because I was a little surprised that he didn't already know. Which means that you haven't told him, either, right? So I thought it might be something we should discuss together, first.
Should we tell our parents? Would that be... weird?
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:17 am (UTC)You're my boyfriend even though that's what she'd want. Because that's how much I like you.
Or at least she used to want it. I'm not sure if she cares one way or the other any more. And regardless, I just wouldn't want to give her the satisfaction.
And yes, I'm a bit surprised he wouldn't know already too, but he has been terribly busy lately, hasn't he?
I don't mind telling your parents, and I think it'd be weirder to hide it from them, if that makes sense. Only because I know them too. Well, not like we'd have stand in front of them holding hands and say, "we've got something to tell you," because then they'd probably overreact or something. And I could see how it would be frightfully awkward to just up and say it, because really, how do you do that gracefully?
Sometimes I worry about what your mum would sayIf you don't want to tell them, I'd understand. And it wouldn't change anything. Anything that matters. At least not between us. I don't care if no-one knows it or everyone does, we're still us either way.
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:25 am (UTC)But I haven't even told you the part that really infuriated him. While he was interrogating me, I told him that I knew he'd bought the exact same pair of earrings for someone who is NOT Mother.
He was really, really taken aback. And then accused me of being ludicrous, of course. But based on his reaction, I'm almost certain that he bought them for a mistress or something, years ago.
That's what I meant about him being imperfect.
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:38 am (UTC)That is rather unfortunate. For him to have done, and for you to have found out. If that's what it was.
And I know you love your mother very much.
I was furious with my mum when she started seeing Prospero, you know. Even though father had been dead for years and years. Because it seemed like such a betrayal to his memory.
Which doesn't make sense at all, but these things don't, do they?
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-03-07 02:44 am (UTC)Mind, he didn't admit anything, but if the earrings were for Mémé or his sister, then why wouldn't he just say? He acted all flustered, instead. You know that it takes a lot for him to get flustered.
I know your Mother's not perfect, either, but hey - she's not Auntie Bella, right?
I think I could laugh more about the imperfections if I didn't have to deal with them...
Anyway, we can talk more in person. Are you free?
I really want to see you.
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:46 am (UTC)And we'll just have to deal with the imperfections together, won't we?
And yes, I am free.
And I really want to see you too.
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:47 am (UTC)