I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good - Private message to Harry and Hermione
So. By my count I have less than a week to prepare myself to face Father and Mother as a new, twice-made traitor. Granted, it isn't the first time I'll be lying to their faces, but it's never been about something quite so big as this.
How strange to think that in one fell swoop I could tell them everything I know and bring MLE down on everyone.
And now I know that Father's "star seems to be falling." Of course, I can't ask about that without them wondering how I even know that in the first place. I already know what answer they'll give me, anyway.
Tell me then, what are you two most looking forward to when you get back to Buckingham? Aside from the fabulous parties, of course.
How strange to think that in one fell swoop I could tell them everything I know and bring MLE down on everyone.
And now I know that Father's "star seems to be falling." Of course, I can't ask about that without them wondering how I even know that in the first place. I already know what answer they'll give me, anyway.
Tell me then, what are you two most looking forward to when you get back to Buckingham? Aside from the fabulous parties, of course.
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As for not trusting you, they don't know you. But Sirius knows that you've known all sorts of things about him for a long time and haven't said anything, so there's that.
Besides, if your only example of your family were your aunt and your great-aunt Walburga, would you have a good picture of them?
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I don't much care if they don't like Auntie Bellatrix and Auntie Walburga, surely you know that. I mean my parents. And yes, I know they have their reasons. That doesn't make it any less awkward, odd, unpleasant and, yes, now that you mention it, confusing.
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And to be fair, your parents think just as ill of most of the Order, and less of people like me, but you're right. It's got to be difficult.
Do you really think your father's still in trouble? I mean, he's been punished by the Lord Protector before, hasn't he? If he didn't have anything to do with Director Selwyn, why would he be?
Are you.... Are you thinking maybe you could convince him to run? To France?
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I don't know how I can convince him of anything without revealing that I know more than he thinks I know. I think he should flee to France, as it so happens. He and Mother both. Funny that you knew I was thinking that.
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But it's not hard to figure out, he's been so involved in everything it's hard to imagine him not going to Azkaban or worse if anything should happen. I was thinking about why you decided to join when you were so set against it before, and I got to thinking that maybe Professor Dumbledore promised he could help make sure nothing bad happened to them. Or at least to your mother; like I said, I don't know if people would forgive your father. But if they left the country and went somewhere to live quietly.... Only I'm not sure France is far enough. But then your aunt and your other grandmother are there, so it makes sense.
Sorry. Just thinking out loud. You should try to sleep, it's really, really late.
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But you might be right, about convincing Mother. Something to think about, at least.