I don't know if "want" is the right word. More like "absolutely must have."

Don't worry, I know it probably doesn't make sense to you now, but trust me when I say that one day, it will. And you can't start worrying about me now, anyway. It's far too late for that.

Bole will get his, one day. I'll see to it. No one deserves the kind of treatment he put you through, but especially not someone like you.