We talked about it a little, before holidays. I mean, Hydra and I, and she said that she's been trying not to feel anything because if she lets it out, even a little, it'll hurt too badly and, I think she's afraid she'd never stop feeling awful.

I sort of felt the same when my parents--when everything happened with them. So I know just what she means. I'm sure you do, too, how you pretend to be strong long enough that you just are, because that's how it has to be.

It's going to be so hard to pretend that nothing's wrong, though, but I can see why she'd want to act that way.

Those pictures in the papers on Sunday--and that article yesterday, the one all about how she was obviously deceived by his 'Continental' influences--I'm sure that's what's got people wondering.

You know.... Oh, no. Nevermind. Bad idea, I think.